Soooo it's been more than a year since I last blogged and I don't know why I'm back here again haha. Been reading all my old posts (procrastination ftw) and it's so weird how time flies so fast!

Anyway, performed for Malaysian Night two days ago (21st Apr 2012!) and it made me feel so nostalgic! I miss my band days. All the effort it took to perfect everything for that 5 minutes of glory on stage. The rush of exhilaration after your performance when you just know that you have given your all and the crowd goes wild.

So anyway, for the sake of memories (when I come back to revisit this place again) I shall upload this here:


Having major mnight withdrawal symptoms now, can't wait to meet up with the dancers again! :D

I miss the days I spent in Belfast.

Had a weird dream last night. Well actually I should make that dreams. A few of them were nightmares I suppose. I remember waking up a number of times throughout the night. But the one dream I remember most vividly was someone telling me to read a bible verse. Haha I don't really recall the exact verse but all I remember was Matthew 6! And I was frantically checking my iPhone's bible before the dream changed into something else again. Hmm. I think I may just be thinking too much or something. This is a little freaky considering Tim wrote on my motivational card to read Matthew 6:14. And it had absolutely no link to his messages above.. But then.. I can't think of a reason why he would write that verse down for me. (Unless he wrote on the wrong card or something.) Makes no senseeeeeeeeee.

I feel like I need somebody to talk to, but I don't know who to turn to. 
My mind's like a whirlwind of lots of thoughts and lots of emotions. 
I think it's time for me to get a diary or something. 
I'm literally typing this without putting any thought to it beforehand.
Last week was basically a terrible week for me. Slept at 2 or 3am practically every day, reading up for my essays and seminars and going, wtf was I reading. Which took the question: 'Why on earth was I reading Law?' to a whole new level.
It's not that I expected Law to be easy. If anything, I did think that Law was challenging. And googling what studying Law is like just gives you endless pages of how it's a lonely subject, how much time that has to invested in it.
But it's really nothing like what I expected at all. Reading about it and firsthand experiencing it is so totally different. Being thrown into something that's wholly new without any guidelines at all was just intimidating to be honest. 
Last week just made me wonder if I can get through this year at all. 
Honestly? I'm scared. I don't know how I'm going to get there but I'm just going to put one foot forward at a time and hoping really hard it gets me somewhere. Finally glad to have made it through this monday. It marked the end of the 'week. 1 quiz, 1 report for my pro bono work, 2 essays and 3 seminars. Looking back it was amazing how I managed to finish all that last week. 
Church retreat helped in its own way I guess. It allowed me to get away from Manchester in general. Look at the countryside and just think about nothing for once. Of course I learnt a lot as well. Discussions helped. Faith is the foundation of all relationships. But I'm not ready to leap into it yet. I'm just glad I managed to talk to people who went through the same thing as I did. With the questions and everything. It makes me wonder how they managed to let go of all their doubts and everything, when I still cannot. Well one thing someone told me that really struck me is that: "Maybe I just didn't want to believe." Like there're sooo many questions I can raise about the bible. But it's probably just the rational side of me doubting everything, refusing to even take a chance at it. I think I rely on myself too much to ever consider fully relying on someone else. 
So back to this week. Been tired these few days. Like really really tired. Attempting to get through all 18 pages of my case analysis but I don't seem to be getting anywhere! Sometimes I wonder why statutes just can't be written in simple english. It's freaking wordplay going on through all 18 pages of it. What constitutes a dangerous animal. Sigh.
1 assessed LMS essay and 2 non-assessed essays are due over the next month. Well all of it are due just before the end of the semester actually. Not to mention seminars every week. Here's hoping that I'll make it through this semester alone. Who knows how difficult next semester will be considering LMS is just the basics and we'll be taking 3 full modules then.

You are a designer

As a DESIGNER, you are receptive to ideas and experiences, and enjoy the beautiful things in life, yet you are also grounded and realistic about yourself and the world.

You have a quiet appreciation for beauty in all its forms – in nature, in people, and in human creations from architecture to movies.

Instead of only focusing on functionality, you try to incorporate your good sense of style and taste into your choices.

At times you feel unsure of yourself, especially when confronted by other people.

You aren't the kind of person who insists on having things your way all the time – you are willing to go along with other people's opinions, even if you disagree.

Others may not know this about you, but you are very interested in new ideas, thoughts, expressions, and experiences. You enjoy learning and trying new things.

Although you are practical, you are anything but boring – you have depths to you that others cannot see.

The idea of doing the same thing every day for the rest of your life scares you – you need more excitement and challenge than that!

You have a remarkable eye for detail and precision, noticing things that others miss.

Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts

You are balanced in your approach to problem-solving, not letting your emotions hold you up.

You are a fashion maven, up on trends, but distinct in your own style. You don't follow trends, you set them.


You are concerned

Your understanding of others' emotions, your sense of right and wrong, and your skeptical nature make you CONCERNED.

Your observations of your environment, in concert with your clearly defined worldview, leads you to be aware of the feelings of others.

Because you can read people well, and because you can understand their feelings, you are often bothered by others' insensitive behavior.

While you appreciate others' emotional nature, you don't think their emotional concerns should take precedence over their obligations to society.

You prefer to be in smaller groups, as big groups can occasionally get out of hand.

Order and structure are somewhat important to you—you believe that people's feelings are better protected when others are respectful and follow certain societal guidelines.

You tend to share your feelings with a few individuals who are close with you, but otherwise you are a somewhat private person.

Haha took this test because of WX, don't know if it's accurate or not! :\